Life is good and yet days later I am still trying to figure out why the tears flowed uncontrollably. Yes, I have been in physical pain but I have learned to deal with that. Nothing obvious came to mind or a single event to set the waterworks off.
The subconscious apparently was working overtime on some issues, but what are they?
Is my body trying to get me to pay attention to something a little more complex than just day to day issues?
Am I concerned what the results will be from the upcoming scan?
Not sure, but I don't think so. I have not pushed when there has been a few obstacles to get the scan scheduled. Do I just want to keep status quo of no news is good news?
I am thinking this maybe the case... I have so enjoyed this spring tending to the gardens and enjoying fresh air and the breezes. Trying to get a new normal established to my life.
It has been described as scanxiety. It's not a emotion I want to revisit in the future.
Hopefully by addressing this event and giving it a name publicly it will not seem so scary in the future.