Everyone of us have good and bad days and I am no different. Your struggles and pains maybe different but they are just as real and valid. So know it means the world to me that you take time to keep me in your thoughts and prayers.
Often, life changing events can make one re-prioritize what is important to them and how they choose to spend their time. It can become tunnel vision. We want to make sure that certain things are taken care of in case our time is cut short or too sick to deal with them. We don't want our loved ones to ever ever doubt our love for them by leaving things undone.
We often hear someone say that their cancer turned out to be a blessing in their life? I still don't quite feel that way, and I am not sure that I could ever say that. However, I can see that my life has been enriched greatly by the lessons and experiences I have had as a result of cancer.
I have met many people that I would have probably never met, had it not been for cancer... but these ladies and her husbands are not strangers any longer.
Having heart to hearts with Doctors and discussing and making changes to protocols for this disease has been very rewarding for me.
While the blog has been good therapy for me, it turns out it seems to be helping others know they are not alone when asking questions at 3:15 in the morning because their mind is racing or they can't sleep. Sharing the lessons learned and giving of yourself while in the midst of ones own tribulations has been amazing and rewarding.
After observing, listening, and reading so many other cancer patients number one issue this past year, I can tell you that the gift of really listening to us and talking about our fears/concerns is huge... The ones that seem to fade away so quickly are the ones that don't feel like they can share their real thoughts and burdens with others.